hidden

i hide from my mind,

pushing it down

pretending that it's all a dream

and i'm a boat rowing gently down a stream.

i pretend that i'm alive,

but i'm only hiding from my mind

and when it finds me

it will have no mercy

all the thoughts i've been ignoring

all the pain i've caused it.

i didn't mean to.

it'll never forgive me for what

i've done.

i don't hate my mind,

i only fear it

because

its suffering

is my fault.