my awakening

I’ve been thinking.

I want to die.

I'm so done

Done living in this awful nightmare

Sometimes

When it breaks into a dream

It flits away

Broken

By the monsters

Who return to claim me

I want to wake up

SOMEBODY

Please.

Shake me,

Pinch me.

I’m trapped

There’s so escape

I imagine the jailer

He must have an evil grin

A spoiled and yellow one

He must be squealing

Cackling with pleasure.

'You will learn'

Honestly, will I?

I feel myself slipping

The horizon comes nearer

Every day

I hurt.

I ache

I long for my awakening

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I’m tired of being trapped

Inside my head

I long to let go

Maybe I should start

Writing notes

Saying my goodbyes

Wishing the best

To those who can stay

I’m down to the last sip

Hope

Has lost its savor

Now it’s a bitter word

Not meant for me

Buried too deep under layers of sand

Heavy sand

Suffocating me

I don’t mind me

I hate where I am

I hate what I do

I’m sick

And Tired

Very Tired

I’m Tired of this ‘dream’

When will it end?

A storybook

Is what I am

Plots twist

Dragons around every corner

Torture

Forbidden feelings

Longing

Joy

Loneliness

I want my story to be over.

I can end my story.

I can put down my pen

And let it end

Ugh

I will always wonder what sort of sequel

There could have been.