Loss

The loss of a love because your own betrayal; fair? No, I cheated then I lied that I will admit. You said you could forgive, you said you would be fine. If that itself was not a lie I would not be alone right now. You could not forgive, you are not fine and now everything we had is lost. I mess up, this is a pain of my own doing, I don't feel like I deserve to be happy so I found one way you scare my happiness away. The plans of a family, the plan of building a life together they all just washed away. Now when you think of me you think disgust, hatred, betrayal, and pain. I want to take you pain away but you cut me out of your life, at one point I was your world and now the thought of even letting me into your world hasn't even crossed your mind. The pain I feel is my own doing I can't fix what I've done and now I hear your voice playing over and over again telling me good- bye.