A part of it all

Where to start and where to stop

from beginning to end

it feels as though a nightmare

has been written and rewritten

over and over again

on my skull's corridor walls

in these endless loops of agony

a labyrinth with no entry nor exit door

it keeps on messing with my every turn

rearranging as it pleases

in needs no permissions

it's a mere head on its own

does as it pleases as if am not there

i wake up because i must

but if i could, i would say goodnight only once

i would shut my eyes one last time

and hope that tomorrow

would be better or gone

my emotions can not follow rules and lines

they rebel against me, my past, and my time

it wished to protect me

but all it does is to break me

just as these verses don't rhyme

my mind is even messier than this

sentences don't start with a letter

rather numbers, screams, or even void

I don't know how long have i ​been in pain,

but i know that want it to end

one day i want to wake up

and think that it's going to be ok,

without having to swallow any remedies n

or drink any tee

just by being next to someone

who cares for me more than I care for myself,

because I don't care anymore

I don't remember when I last cared