By me, I mean I

It’s been years since I thought of you

Since I reflected on all I’ve put you through

Years since I considerded your needs

By you I mean I, By I, I mean me

I stopped caring about how I made you feel

Harsh words and judgments, wounds are real

I took my value from my own palms

And let the mind of others define my wrongs

Everytime I feel like you’re not enough

It’s rewarded with ever decreasing self-trust

When did I lose the last of my self-compassion?

The voices of others, an overwhelming distraction

To you I mock, judge, abuse and even lie

By you I mean me, by me, I mean I

Its my own fault that I feel this way

My own disregard for the lost soul I slay

This is the problem, the cycle is on repeat

From my own torment, I cannot retreat

My last ally and my enemy are of one kind

both reside in my lovely broken mind