The demons have been locked away...

It's too much

Too heavy, too soon

I cannot be with someone

Who stresses me

Mentally and emotionally

Someone who makes me think

Someone that makes me deviate from logic

I just got out of it

That dark dark place

Deep deep deep

In my broken broken darker mind

I just got away from that choking feeling

Worked that huge lump down my throat

Digested it in my stomach

I just got away

From that need to clutch at every part of me

Cut some parts off, drown some in acid

Stop living

And just take a perpetual time off

I just walked away from that habit I couldn't help

Of crying into the morning

Shedding tears for forgotten reasons

Wishing I could just fade away

Be gone

And then going to bed

with an empty heart and head

When I should be waking up

shutting my eyes

No plans and no aspirations

As if it's certain that I won't wake up

Ever again

I just locked my demons in a cage

And I can't let them out

I'm not strong enough

This time

I won't make it

So I'm sorry

But

I can't be with you.