Vexation at self - regarding avoidable altercation...

Today May 12th, 2021 at Royersford (Pennsylvania) LIDL,

when spouse stepped into checkout line

(minus her horse drawn grocery cart -

pushed courtesy yours truly).

While passively standing stock still

I (think Stonewall Jackson)

let scenario unfold before mine myopic eyes,

whereby acquiescing nonverbally

attempting to scooch closer

to conveyor belt subsequently attempting

to maneuver shopping cart in front

of another patron (an older man)

with small number of items in his cart,

who became irate at me.

He appeared angered

at his thwarted (senior) priority,

especially when mine wife gave him few choice words.

All that learning regarding learning conflict resolution

(years gone by) taught by the late therapist Jean Dole

ineluctably escaped me.

I smart with disappointment not offering

aforementioned aggravated fellow shopper right of way

proceeding ahead of us

(initiating at least one daily random act of kindness).

Figurative astringent aftertaste

left in mouth cuz laudable

good samaritan deed chased

away, thus one generic bloke felt he disgraced

his credo and ethos that laced

behaviorist paradigm shouldering

virtuous lofty aspirations

as upholding saintiless gone to waste.

Nevertheless foo fighting beastie boy

attains exhibiting motto viz -

doing right by doing good.

Since birth and every

subsequent growing up year

until earth around sun orbitz

equalled lxii plus some months gradual aging

upon this body electric didst wear

major organs as personal choices made to veer

toward folkloric, generic holistic living

social societal, theoretical fabric minimally didst tear

which family of origin constituent part (nurture)

nsync verses with nature (genetics)

steeped with ethos to share

with parents, row mans, siblings,

(now offspring), et cetera superfluity

sans abundance, or paucity per cornucopia rear

neither former plentifulness,

nor latter scarcity respectively

predictable asper being dynamic

versus static such yield based, linkedin,

and predicated on a gamut how fate

didst wield one record breaking catch

of the century, and sealed

fickle non butterfinger

Swedish Fish Ma PHEAA filleted

famed schooled Redmond Efficiency Academy

top of the class for each grade,

whence analogous

viz zit hid had dock

pier fickle lee hooray randomly cast

piscine line reeled inlaid

hallowed sea man tricked treat

once the providence, which belief informed lifelike

sculpted, Idolized carved likeness

revealed from precious metal

or jade unseen creator mortals prayed

some examples being handily

accorded mechanistic multi-deistic

such as Manichaeism, Mithraism, Muslim,

et cetera belief, credo, divine entity

man made attempting cosmic explanations

grandly incorporating limitless mysteries

splashed throughout universe visually displayed

decrees ordained requiring unbridled zeal

only the dead privy to espy secret seventh seal

hence ne'er did plentiful spirits reveal

themselves as flesh and blood, nonetheless,

despite lack of sects ap peal

fervent humility, integrity, magnanimity...

prayers preceded before each meal

or any exploitative endeavor,

especially those which did heal

instilling positive influences

to hopefully sway sought after immortal deal,

and ethos, figuratively drilled into arboreal

predecessors minds of highest saint seeking achievers

and/ or hardcore faithful devout believers

who oft morphed into

zombie thrashing maniacs seized cleavers

a yen to revile against heretics,

not moost ideal to breed largesse,

whence possessed by fevers

toward simple axe of pious,

who indulgently pulled levers

no matter feigned actions hash tagged

reciprocating masquerade i.e. facade, charade afraid

but, nevertheless a Good Samaritan renegade.