Losing the Battle

In the darkness

alone

I hear it ....a constant

Buzzing, quiet ringing

LOUD Silence.

it deafens me as I reach through

Salty curtains that veil the

TRUTH and try to see, feel and understand

but I’m not there yet.

I see YOU, once my rock and safe

Haven

space to vent and seek comfort

shattered by your deception

Angry that you cannot

see

break your cycle of

control

manipulation

Twisting the situation to reflect your

PAIN

experiences, feelings and memories

IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU

STOP trying to console with false understanding

lit is our story

my story

my pain

their anguish. Your devotion mocks our attempts at moving on

your need to know it all

to control it all.....

it needs to stop.

listen and HEAR our cries

The feeling of inadequacy

of emotinal emptiness and self critical perfection

We impose upon our scarred and broken relationships

help us move ahead....

what we are saying

With our words

With our actions

With heart .please.