nooses and cowardice

i wear my noose like a necklace,

too scared to hang it up and tie the knot.

people walk by without noticing,

some people tug it tighter

as a joke.

some people say i'm faking

too afraid to commit.

and every time they say it,

i draft a new note

with their name in it,

saying

look at me now, bitch.

i'm brave.

but i never am brave enough.

i'm afraid of commitment,

not ready to commit suicide,

so i just wear my noose around my neck.

maybe one day

someone will stop accusing me of cowardice

and pull the noose tight.

since i'm too scared,

i'd love it if

you'd do it for me.