Distance Distorts my Sight

It's always late at night

when the first pangs of loneliness hit,

and make me feel so far away from the people I love.

Once the loneliness takes root in my mind

its chaos from there.

I don't understand it, I get why it's happening

but not to the extent that I'm feeling it.

My insecurities are fuel to the fire raging in my heart,

I'm trapped in a wall-less prison,

there's no escape,

and it makes me despair,

I know I'm going to burn to ashes,

and I dread it.

They weave illusions before my eyes

as smoke fills the room,

and its hard to tell what is real and what is a lie.

They become enmeshed with each other.

My judgement is clouded by the smoke,

and I can't tell the two apart

so I believe in what I'm told

even if it doesn't make sense,

it's just that I'm in agony

and what they say goes.

The distance I feel from everyone

makes me feel alone,

and I yearn to be close to them

to not feel this way.