R. T.

I searched for you a thousand times

How many times did I curse you?

I ran after you

Banished you from my brain

And time and again

And time and again

I only loved you

I dreamed you up a thousand times

How often did I miss out on you?

I touched you hesitantly

I always just failed to reach you

And time and again

And time and again

I only loved you

I succumbed to many a woman

Laid in many a bed

Moaned and writhed

Didn’t find you anymore

And, my lips sore from other kisses,

I could only think of you

Rubbed myself against stranger’s skin

I remained faithful to you

So many empty hours already

I sat foolishly by the phone

And I hoped, in my delusion,

Only to waste my time

And time and again

And time and again

I only loved you

I took you into my heart

Just to be alone with you

I closed my eyes

And imagined you in color

And time and again

And time and again

I only loved you

Other hands held me

None could hang on to me

The other women who came to me

I called by your name

Other hands brushed my legs

None were like yours

I undressed others

I never cheated on you

I searched for you a thousand times

How many times did I curse you?

I ran after you

Banished you from my brain

And time and again

And time and again

I only loved you  

I dreamed of you a thousand times

Missed out on you a thousand times

Touched you a thousand times

Failed to reach you a thousand times

And time and again

And time and again...

I love you still