How dangerous it is to "feel" for another

One I wasted a year of my youth chasing

One never cared

One faded away

One played with hearts and mine

And now,

One who did everything to make me feel okay and safe

Who helped me found myself when I was lost

Who was someone I can talk about anything

Who somehow knew the right time when I needed him the most without a word

Who helped me laugh with his humour

Who helped me smile

Who shared the love of music and books

And most importantly,

Who was my best friend

Even through a distance

But,

of course.

Like the rest,

You were never the one for me

How stupid.

I knew you would never feel the same anyway

But

Our friendship is what matters the most

Your presence in my life matters the most

I will never ask for more

Now, you became the one who found someone else

I shall once again take a step back

And leave it all behind.

Yes, I'm hurting.

It's not your fault,

It's mine.