to my little sister (my truth)

if everyone who loves me

everyone who held me, comforted me

has died

except you

i would stay for you

i would hold you, comfort you

i would endure such a world

to be there, to love you

i would do that for you.

i would stay.

(one day maybe i could do it for myself)

if you went to hell

and i went to heaven

and everyone i love went to heaven too

i would leave

i would spend an eternity burning

trade heaven for hell

just to be with you

even if i couldn’t touch you

hold you, comfort you

if you didn’t even know i was there

i would go in a heartbeat

it’s not a decision

not a good or kind choice

it’s the hook in my heart that pulls me

between you and the struggle

you and the suffering

you and the world

(even if it were a choice

i’d choose you over anything.)

if the world held nothing for me

except grief

and you

i would stay.