Silently loving you

I'm used to playing pretend

Hiding pain and holding back tears

This isn't any different

Yet I can't let myself lose you

Even though it burns

I hold on to the flame

While hiding it from the world

Hoping in a miracle

A distant future

With you by my side

Dreaming of dancing in black and white

Echoes of a life I don't know if I get to live

I'm already in mourning for the possibility

Of losing you

I write a word for every tear

I shed a tear for every moment away from you

What have you done to me, my love

I fall asleep thinking of you

And my thoughts turn into dreams

I finally have the hope of seeing you

Pictures don't do you justice

And after so much time

I'm forgetting your voice

And the way you move

Every part of you that I love

Is slowly slipping away

In my dreams you return

And I can see you again

But every time we are about to touch

On the brink of seeing sparks

I wake up and remember

That you are far away and not allowed

And I live with the fog of a memory

Of your hand touching mine

And of your breath on my lips