Without Breathing

Throat closing up

Sides pressing in

Breathing is restricted

As the heart starts

Aching more

I am giving up

On something precious

And my choice leaves me breathless

For I know that it is wrong

But I still forge ahead

You and I are reaching the end

I am losing some

Oxygen in my life

I’ll need to breathe more

Shallowly, it seems

Breathing restricted

Almost non-existent

But, how can I breathe

in my own toxic presence?

How can you breathe if I’m still here?

Maybe if I stopped strangling myself so

Took the noose from my neck

Maybe then I’ll breathe more easily

We can try one more time, perhaps

But until I make my decision

I have to survive without breathing...