no one knows

I’m afraid of being a burden

I’ve never really said it aloud

I don’t want to be that person that’s only invited because they’re pitied

I don’t want to be that person that’s jokingly gossiped about when they leave

I’m cautious of my actions, scared they will ruin everything.

Im afraid of being compared

yet all I do is compare myself to others

I’m not good enough

Not pretty enough

Not smart enough

There’s nothing I’m good at

Look at her.

I wish I was her.

No one knows

I’m scared of being outcasted

Being left alone with no one to talk to

I thought no one realized the truth behind my joking words.

My essay was terrible. I’m the worst dancer here. I’m not even gonna pass the exam

But they did

They knew

They knew when I said it with a laugh afterwards I really was saying the truth. I had no confidence in myself.

Yet no one knew

I was scared of failing.

of being compared.

of being a burden.

I was scared I would be alone.

And

No one knows