False Love

I walk around seeking for shelter after being wounded

My heart aches for another

I wish to find someone who will love me for who I am-

someone who wouldn’t push me away and call me a bother

This pain that I always feel after being hurted by others

Backstabbing, betrayal, pity, lying,

I wish those words didn’t exist

The things I’ve suffered makes me feel like dying

One after another, you turn me away

Will I ever be able to stop walking and find a safe place to rest?

The times no one was there to wipe away my tears

The only thing I can do is try my best

This world feels so small,

yet I’m still trying to find love to heal my bruised heart

Each text I send, I wait patiently for a answer

In the end you throw me away like a disgusting piece of art

I wanted this song to change you,

I wanted my feelings to reach you

It seems like a eternity when you reply back

But at that time I’m already prepared, this is nothing new

The things you said to me-

made me feel like the time we spent together was fake

I truly wanted to believe the memories we had were happy

Alas, my heart begins to ache

I don’t want to think about you,

but I can’t get you out of my head

Should I have not been too pushy?

Or was it you and not me instead?

I learn to never trust others but I still do either way

The things I can’t throw away,

the wound that still remains

I’ll end up being trashed anyway

This false love that still pains me to this day

But I never learn my lesson

I always end up trusting you, hoping that you would love me

I wish this pain will lessen

Finally a small ray of hope arrived before me

Will I really be able to be me?

Will you accept me for who I am?

Or will you just leave me free?