withdrawal

now, i've never had a tendency to alcohol or addicted to nicotine.

but without her i felt like i was missing what i had been leaning on for so long.

shaky, unstable, falling and falling.

falling down instead of in love.

i missed her,

but i never cried.

i was numb, mourning for the feelings that were ghosting me, leaving and just beyond reach-

i could never reach them again .

during heartbreak,

your heart beats fast (from trembling)

your stomach is eating at itself (from anxiety, regret, anger)

your palms are sweaty (what did i do wrong? how did i mess up?)

you can't speak straight (memories demand your full attention)

it's funny,

all the withdrawal symptons from heartbreak feel a lot like butterflies and their entourage.