Wish I couldn’t feel

"How did I become so numb?"

Oh God, I wish I was numb.

Wish I didn't have to feel,

Wish that nothing was real

But honey I feel everything.

Every curse, every tear, ever fail.

I feel it all and I feel too much.

Oh Lord, how I wish I was numb.

Everyone complains

About feeling so so dead

But I wish I felt dead,

Hell, I wish I was dead,

Because feelings always fuck me up.

If I was numb I'd have no regrets,

No unrequited love

No voices in my head calling me dumb.

Sure, I'd never feel joy,

But it's not like I feel it much anyway.

Melt me down into plastic,

Make me a fucking toy.

Everyone complains about being numb

But I'd love my feelings to

Go away.