The water gets warmer the longer you stay

Tell me

is this what drowning feels like?

Numb, with vibrant cheeks

Empty, with full feeling.

my hands are shaking

letting liquid lies slip through my

steady fingers

(I know what I want; but I don’t).

is this what

d

r

o

w

n

i

n

g

feels like?

tiptoeing over problems with heavy limbs,

holding pleasure never.

vibrating with life, as I die

free, as I am trapped in alcohols illusion.

I am

s i n k i n g

slowly

weightlessly

heavily

fast.

drifting

into clouds of thick

moisture

choking on

sugared oceans

of endless

misery.

is this what drowning feels like?

when you are

submerged

in merky memories

intoxicated

by different realities

as you wistfully pour more

liquid

down

your throat

instead of swimming to the surface

to face the reality of the cold air

...

Yes...this is...what...drowning...feels like...