disassociation associated with me / i have her business card printed on my breast

there is no joy in a fragile existence / glass waves crash in my skull

blade dyed ebony with crimson undertones / satan incarnate smiles

devil but you’re not my advocate / give the snake’s name to the fae

call me what you wish / but my name is not four letters reflected

harbinger of sins, i see you always / sharing the seven over thin ice.

where is my adam / cracked ribs and punctured lungs cry for forgiveness

desperation, drowning in familial bonds liquefied / qualified not for life

quality not for consumption / stolen from those more deserving of it than i

because i am empty / charon’s boat visiting, asking to pay what i owe

broken teeth and shattered dreams / cannot pay for eighteen years wasted.

i am not myself / my story etched into poetic fallacies that i do not remember

body scarred with mistakes / when i am not me i am a husk, but i wither regardless

forget to breathe and see heaven / we are an abandoned species, this i hold dear

on eagle’s wings we shed blood / where is the freedom palpable, lord and savior

i do not pray because i am not worthy of your voice / father and son, holy spirit.

i do not pray because  you will not answer me / pleas carried on ancient letters

melted into marble statues / we live in history but we are not all remembered

ancestors watching from afar and no temple worships them / they are forgotten

i will be forgotten just as they / ashes to ashes, dust to cremation and death

i will be forgotten just as they / and no hands will hold me as i slip away.