prayer

lord

i am grateful

for your grace

for you are

my only base

to build life on

and to chase

hopes and dreams

and joyful days

i walked only

on the ways

you showed me.

and now i stand on the edge of this cliff

i believed in your lie

and i'll jump

and i'll die.

i rest my case --

and lord, i

forgive you.

lord

let me adore you,

let me pray.

you gave your life

for us to be

and then lived on

and so did we.

you gave us eyes

so we could see

you gave us thoughts

so we'd be free.

you promised us

eternity

forever - you.

and i have seen my name on a grave

i believed in your lie

so i agreed

now i'll die.

and you forgot about me.

and lord, i

forgive you.

my love, my world.

you're so infatuated

with this game that you created

that you lost sight

you lost your right

to play

today

you have to slay

those who do not like the rules

those who are more than blinded fools

those who like me now understand

those who finally demand

the truth, oh lord, and we will rise

with tainted bodies, famished eyes

we will abolish all your lies

tear down deception and disguise

reject your love that we despise.

no longer will i be this flawed

no longer numb this haunting thought

no longer live off a facade --

no longer will you be my god.

years of my life i trusted you.

believed your world, your word, was true

accepted life and dream and death

in fact, i was too blind and deaf

asleep, unconscious, paralysed.

benumbed. lethargic. agonized.

i loved you, i knew you loved me.

you were protection. you were here.

you held my hand, you gave me land,

you gave me fire, gave me flesh.

you gave me dust and gave me ash.

but colour has always been just an illusion and

i'll uncover your lie

one last time

as i die.

leave me, oh world. leave me, oh life.

be with me no more, you're the knife

that killed my mind and killed my took my breath.

my fate decided. freeing death.

my time is up.

so lord, hear me:

i don't believe in gravity.