Bad Days

On good days I can see you plainly

But on bad days you disappear

Like the stars behind the clouds

I know you're still there but

I can't quite seem to find you

I look in my brain

Making sure to tiptoe

Around the demons and monsters

Looking under many memories

Of a happier life I thought I lived

But you aren't there

I look into my heart

Stepping over the cracks and the scars

Looking into the most hardened parts

Chipping away at the rough edges

I looked in the the softer spots

Yet you weren't there

I looked into my soul

In the sea of potiential

In the deepest regrets

In the dark spots

Looking with only my little light

You still weren't there

I gave up.

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@chainedinshadow