Toxic

You let poison seep into your mind.

You try to convince me

To allow myself do the same.

There is no filter between

The words that flow from and into you.

You refuse to listen to my side,

My perspective.

You’ve occupied my head for far too long

Although I’ve tried and failed to push you out,

You refuse to leave:

There is a mark left from your hate,

Your intolerance

Where you once spoke to me

Where you once showed me

Who you really were.

Maybe I fanned the flames.

Maybe I wanted you to hate me.

Maybe I wanted to show you

How wrong and closed you were.

I realize, you were never my friend,

So I didn’t care.

Eitherway, your deliberate ignorance,

Your snarky comments,

Have weighed me down.

I lie awake at night,

My anger,

Threatening to take over;

And envy at your ability

To forget:

Your words that stabbed like knives

Before pretending they weren’t

Meant to hurt.

You think that you know best,

Well you are blind

To your obnoxiousness.

You tell me who I have to be,

What I have to believe,

And insult me if I don’t.

But now,

Done.