I lost my virginity to a boy who tasted of milk

My first kiss, stolen by a boy

Turned man.

My first everything a drunken mistake ,

I was not drunk.

I have new definitions

New words for love

New words for first.

A girl swinging through my blues

A first declaration of consent

A first declaration of peace.

To reclaim the lost

One must go through the dark.

So much pressure

Why did I give in

Why was he drunk.

I will learn to say no

I will say no

No.

Not tonight, not tomorrow,

Please never again.

She lulls me back to sleep

My dreams are gone again.

I smell peaches and summer breeze

I have returned.

I’m accepted

I’m loved

I am she is me