Nowhere do I Belong

Where would I  go?

It is to you I  usually  run to

...but now where you sit it empty.

I see the imprint  of where you used to be,

where you'd  be when you were relaxed, with me.

Yet, I  now only see impressions of you where you can now only ever be...

And the sickening  thought creeps into me-where will I  be without you next to me?

I hear your voice and all the  words you used to say

The words that wrapped around me tight, and squeezed away any doubts.

The words affixed  to me like an ever burning blaze....

And now that flame has dissipated and what is left is a thickening smoke.

So now as the smoke engulfs my very me, I  must beg where is the place I can belong?

You were here and now you are gone and so my screams go unheard.

But still I  implore:

To where is it I can go?

And now I  know that everyday  will never be like yesterday.

The haunting gloom overtaking  me endeavors to destroy  my sanity.

I think of you and us and we

And now I  notice it's  only me

The broken me who used to exist before it was to you I could turn

And now no matter how many turns and swirls I  take, I've  come to realize my fate

I'm  back to the place in which  I  once stood and...

I again there is nowhere for me to belong.