Grey

Grey is the feeling that is not often talked about. And, yes I said feeling not color or word because it is so much more than that. It is an emotion that the world ignores or rather doesnt realize has a name. It is waking up and going through the motions of your day, it is forgetting your own name, it's walking out the front door just to realize you forgot your keys in the hallway, it is minor inconveniences that arn't really problems yet it's a nuisance to solve them, it's when you loose track of time and days blur together, you can't t recall what you had for dinner and yet you know that you ate, it's the boring and menial tasks that your brain stores away, it's actions you take without thinking, blinking, breathing, it's everything you've ever done and forgotten, it's like walking, it's habits you do when your body is on

autopilot because your mind has taken to the sky, it's when the light is shining through your eyes but nobody is home, it's the pages that arn't important enough to be included in books, it's the days that are over looked, it is everything in between being awake and falling asleep. When everything is the same and all you want is change. It's feeling nothing because there's nothing to feel, people often confuse being depressed for grey. This is just untrue because when you are depressed you feel something when you are grey you feel nothing. Depression is longing for better days and better change. Grey is longing to remember the days and for any change, just to feel something would be enough. I'm telling you this because you deserve to know that what you're going through has a name that can be spelled two ways and that it's gray.