A letter that was long overdue

For all the good things that I didn’t buy,

all the good friends I couldn’t keep,

all the kisses that I failed to deliver,

all the Hellos that I did not wave,

all the “thank you” notes that I didn’t send out,

all the hands that I never got to shake;

all the hearts that I wasn’t able to heal;

all the laughters that we could have enjoyed,

and all the tears that we could have shared together;

all the love-affairs that I failed to transcend into friendship;

all the tender feelings that I eventually letting go;

all the promises that I broke;

all the dreams that I shattered;

all the hearts that I walked pass without making a ripple inside;

all the songs that I failed to remember how to reverberate;

all my good years that I did not learn how to cherish;

all the bad years that I failed to learn how to regurgitate;

and all creature-beings, big or small that I intentionally or accidentally hurt or killed…

I am here calling all of you with all my past regrets into my life,

I am here to shake hands with you,

and invite all of you to my birthday party,

I share all my good days ahead with you,

with all my resources, unconditional love, and

undivided compassion and attentions with you.

Please accept my apologies,

for failing in recognizing

the preciousness and importance of your presence

in my life.

Please show me,

how to enhance my awareness to the very tenderness

of your heart even better;

teach me how to expand my sensing, touching and feeling of your treasurable pristine soul even deeper,

and allowing me to extend my deepest gratitude to your very existence in my heart even further.