a chasing of light

the light had broken

the very same person it fixed

i knew i wasn’t supposed to be here

but i didn’t belong anywhere else

a deserted rooftop

the world falling asleep

loneliness: the thought of you next to me

cold wind torn out pieces of a heart

and i thought i could catch a wisp

the scent of your perfume

that i get drunk on every time

as the evanescent city lights

turned off one after another

my existence like a polaroid in reverse

saturated colors turned into blanks

every moment was closer to vanishing

leaving with nowhere to go to

and no one to become

all i could hear was silence within me

perhaps i had scattered myself

in hopes of someday

having a body you never touched

but deep down i knew of a confession:

even if i had a thousand lifetimes

meeting you made this one

the one i had been waiting for

a part of me desperately wanted someone

to notice i had been gone for a long time

nothing more than for someone to ask:

where are you? tonight

seeking that answer relentlessly

i wish i knew but lost it when i met you

as my body became a glass casket

and a darkness too familiar

the whole of me selfishly wanted you

and only you to be here

the last and only wish: loving you until the end

two people one faultless and the other broken

under the same faded sky i was lost

in a world you could’ve entered but it’s over

so before i leave and the story ends

one last question that begs for an answer

who are you? you’re all i care about

i let go and an empty casket

fell to the cold concrete ground

crushed into a million pieces

but even then it didn’t belong anywhere

or to anyone for darkness was a burden

my hand scraped from picking up fragments

of a heart that tried not to love so deeply

but simply couldn’t do it

was this the ending you hoped for?

then a while later i had lost count

of how long has passed

for time had ceased to exist

in the world you had the chance to save

but shattered it without knowing

you were the light

in the eternal abyss of darkness

a while later i thought i heard

cutting through the night-

sirens

i woke up

and i didn’t remember anything

but that i was falling

like the dream everyone has

like the feeling everyone knows

i fell too fast and crashed too hard

but it wasn’t from somewhere high

i’m looking at you as i write this

if only you knew i was falling for you

- deathetix