this is what i can give you

i used to love you

in that way

the way in which every fairytale ends

and every princess in every movie is searching for

and you never wanted to be like them

and somehow we kept writing ourselves into the same scenarios we watched unfold on television

except ours wasn't an ever after

because i never let it be

i just kept asking and asking

for more of your time

more of your attention

more handholds and hugs and kisses before you leave

and none of it never added up to enough for me

i was addicted to you

suffocating you

and in the end it was me who made the fire that once danced between us go out

and i saw you leave with it