I Never Loved You

When I saw you outside my hotel in Denmark, my heart sank. This was my first business trip and I was excited. I knew you were set to arrive and here you were – in the sweater you knew was my favorite with a smile on your face.

A knot appeared in my stomach.

Because I wasn’t happy to see you.

Years later, I look back on that moment in December of 2012 and realize that was the moment I had already broken up with you. We had no drama between us – no one cheated. It took until March 2013 to finally say goodbye. I know it crushed you and yet I felt free.

To those reading – don’t pity this man. He got married to a beautiful woman and finally had the kids he always wanted. Me, on the other hand, I’m still bouncing from world to world. From being in finance to being in the military. I cannot seem to find my path.

I only know, it was never with you, AG because I never loved you even though I tried.