so lonely

Late night, I’m alone again.

I need a friend,

I’m tired of living my life through movies

I wanna experience life with my own skin.

I’m too scared, way too scared to go outside.

I’ve been hurt before, I know there’s only a few to trust.

I want to take the risk, but something is telling me I shouldn’t.

I don’t even know where to start,

where do you find a friend? How do you know they will stay?

I am always by myself, I used to think I liked it this way,

but maybe I just did not want to admit

that I’ve been alone for so long

I forgot what it feels like

to not be lonely.

Everyone around me seems to find love.

I want to know what love songs talk about.

I will never fall in love again

and there’s no right one for me.

We come alone and alone we die,

with an empty soul and a broken heart.

No one will miss me when I'm gone,

because no one is by my side when I am still alive.