Revelation

Today I finally realized something.

I was wondering why my mind has been

in a consant state of chaos.

Well it’s been

trying to show me

what I’ve been missing out on.

That I need to slow down,

take a breath,

and stay here in the little moments.

That I don’t need to rush everywhere.

That I’m in such a hurry,

to do everything,

that I can’t enjoy my free time.

This weight I’ve been carrying

wasn’t meant to be constant.

The hours feel like minutes,

when you only think about how soon

your free time will end.

That’s what happens

when your thoughts gallop

as quick as a race horse.

Always in a competition against the clock,

trying so hard to be number one,

cutting the corners

to get to the end faster,

the hoof beats of the opposition

urging you to run.

Run faster,

like your life depends on winning.

That kind of adrenaline,

isn’t bad every now and then,

sometimes it spurs you into action,

but when it’s every damn day

chaos becomes addicting.

You run through everyday,

never stopping to give yourself a break,

pushing yourself past what you can take,

in this toxic way.

If only you could realize:

It’s not about how fast you get to your destination.

It’s not about how many others are in front of you.

It’s not about comparing yourself to others,

to see the gap between you two:

A. GAP. WILL. ALWAYS. EXIST.

Everyone has a different path,

hence why we all don’t share the same gifts.

Instead they vary

from person to person.

You’re not meant to follow someone else:

You make your own way.