Standing in the gap

Day after day I see you. I see you fighting to be here. The unwanted cocktail of symptoms that have led to one diagnosis after another. Fighting my own depression and anxiety to stand in the gap for you. I willingly do this every day and will for the rest of my life . Days when the outside world is too loud, moving too fast, the air too heavy and your lungs too tired to breath deeply. I hold you, sit near you, watch from a distance whatever you need of me, I do. My child, I want to be mad at these illnesses. How dare they plague you so relentlessly. Mostly, I am determined. I am sad as I see activities and moments stolen from your childhood. I am proud of you and the Mike Tyson kind of way you fight for your mental health. You are so much more than Bi-polar, ADHD and autism. You are creative, funny, strong, inquisitive, loyal and smart! I will stand in the gap as long as you will let me. I will continue to love you, to believe in you and punch mental illness in the face with you. #EvelynDawn #mentalhealth