The Doldrums of Life

To want more than the everyday list of accomplishments.

Congratulations you woke up,

showered,

got dressed,

kept the kids alive.

Choosing comfort

over

and over

and over.

Comfort turned to complacency.

Sacrificing more than you ever should.

Only now beginning to understand the weight you've been carrying.

Pretending it's baby weight.

Modeling yourself as the Madonna of motherhood.

The ultimate saint

you decided to martyr your soul for the mistakes of your 20s.

This is your broken life.

Gathering the pieces everyday

sticking them together with makeup, hair spray, clothes, heels,

until you disintegrate back into the million broken pieces

only to do it again tomorrow.

Is there anything stronger

more permanent

you wonder as you stare into the mirror

Worrying constantly what will happen when your children leave.

You will have nothing but your ugly,

barren unfulfilled soul to greet you every morning.