Stabbing

That sharp pain , oh what a sharp pain ,

It feels like someone pounding a sword into my beated heart , a pain I felt the moment I closed my eyes an trusted the greater part of you ..

That sharp pain , oh what a sharp pain ,

It’s driving me insane , the pounding in my head like if I’m banging it .... maybe I should have ....

That sharp pain , oh that sharp pain ,

When I saw all the light in you and believed u shut me down with the dark and reopened my ugly scars , the stabbing didn’t end to I gave up and I fought and fought but maybe I should have ...

That sharp pain , oh that sharp pain ,

When I close my eyes I think to my self is this what a women deserves and as soon as I close my eyes ur in my head making me feel power less like I was underwater choking to survive, maybe I should have .....

Maybe I should have ... done many things to stop this dreadful pain that’s never left me alone feeling like ima burst into flames of agony , fighting it and fighting it , till the stabbing is wat I make of it and not what it makes of me .....