Never.

I will never tell you

the real reason I came to every meeting

was to see you

I can never say

that your jokes always make me laugh

and hearing your joy, your laugh, makes me want to live

I will never tell you

that I never thought I'd feel this

and that I wish you knew

I can never say

that I long to hear your voice,

tell me something stupid just so I know you still remember me

I will never tell you

that I used to grin like a girl just fallen

when we would depart after a night of board games

I can never say

that all along I knew you were taken

but it didn't stop me from falling in love

I will never tell you

that I'm sorry for me

should I be sorry for you?

that I would tell you the truth if I didn't think it would break me

I will never, ever tell you

that all I can ever wonder is if in a different reality

would we have been possible?