Emotional disaster

Torturing myself looking at the new pictures of you

Seeing you look at him the way I looked at you

Wondering if everything was a lie

Of course the promises were

But wondering if the looks you gave me were a lie

If the sensual touches

The nights curled into each other

The opening of our hearts

The sharing of our baggage

You crying on me,

Me crying in front of another person

For the first time in years

Was it all a lie?

Was every moment spent holding each other a lie?

Was the laughter?

My lips on your neck, my hands on your back and thigh, was it all a lie?

Why

It's what I keep asking myself

Why

Baring my soul to you

More honesty flowing through me

More genuine responses than I had ever given anyone

Our relationship was based on deception

I guess I always knew that nothing good could come of it

A part of me still wants to know, even though I never will

Won't ever get that sense of closure

Was your love a lie?