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i miss you

and the way your eyes looked so longingly into mine

like perfect gems,

they glimmered with the glints of fresh love,

of childish admiration

your irises seemed so dark,

yet they always seemed to pool with adoration

when you gazed into mine

i miss you

and the way you weaved your words into poems,

the clusters of letters that

enraptured my very soul

the small phrases you would utter every now and then,

that sent shivers racing down my spine

i miss you

and your hands,

the fingers that fit so perfectly into mine,

with warm palms and a caring touch,

my missing puzzle piece that completed my life

i was whole,

with you

i was me,

with you

i miss you

and your rosy cheeks that

flushed whenever our lips touched,

tongues dancing with the taste of

honeysuckle-flavored lip balm

when i would cup your face in my hands

you’d smile into the kiss with adoration

and caress my skin with your thumbs,

brushing over the surface like it was made of silk

you’d always bring me gifts

and care for me whenever nobody else did

you’d wipe my tears and let me

sob into your shoulder

then pat my back and whisper sweet nothings in my ear

sometimes i regret losing you

everyday, actually

but i’m happy

to see you stress-free

and living life as it should be lived

we’re still friends

and i know you love me so much

but right now it’s not the best time for either of us

we have separate goals to work towards

i know one day we can be happy together

i know you know the same thing

you’re smart

caring

amazing

everything that my mother would have wanted,

funnily enough

but now is not the time

it’s time to let go of the past

and move towards the future

a future where we can both thrive in