je t’aime

I wanted to do something

which didn’t have the pieces of you.

I wanted to see what I am,

without you.

So I ended up writing.

But I am sad;

I wouldn’t have written,

anything

at all,

had it not been

for the box of

pain,

darkness

&

growth

you

s i l e n t l y

gifted me.

So what

is it,

that I am doing

for myself,

when this is still about you?

all these notes come from

the pieces

you gave me;

they are the remnants

of you,

and us.

I am all about you,

even when I am trying not to.

You are me,

&

I am you.

Am I still in love with you?