The Balancing Act

I need to change.

The balance between acceptance and change.

But I don't need to change.

Bad habits (God, so many!) need changing.

But my personality, who I am at my core, should always be accepted, most importantly by me.

I should accept myself as I am in order to change.

Such a seeming paradox!

I am a bundle of contradictions.

So be it.

That needs accepting.

My self-sabotaging behaviors need changing, by changing my disastrously confused and easily malleable thoughts. 

God help us.

O Lord, have mercy on my brain.

Change me by changing my mind.

I pray.