Happy Little Soul.

I hate how happy you make me sometimes

I hate how much I smile

I hate that you showed me I really am a happy person

Sometimes I could convince myself I’d just been masquerading

I’d been hiding the sad beneath my skin

But no

You stole that little comfort right from under my nose

I can’t pretend anymore

I can’t pretend that I’m faking it

Because I’m not anymore

I was

For a long time I was

And then I got stronger and wasn’t

And yet I still felt like I was faking it

Like it wasn’t real

Until you made me realize it was

That my happy soul was meant to come along and meet someone like you