In a mood...

I realized today that I loved you. Eyes soaked and stained, burning even. At moments like these I wipe my snot on my shirt. Eat popcorn and let the crumbs fall. Try to enjoy a chocolate bar while knowing I’ll find my sheets freckled with small dark brown shit-like stains tomorrow.

At times like this I fail at distraction. I open a window, stick my face out, warm and wet, and wonder, “Why is the sky so fucking beautiful?!!”