Giving up on waiting

The sky smells of firecrackers and stale wine

The wind is limp and damp with memories

Smudging my brow with the worries it carries

Eyes black as your window these past months

God, how I miss you

Even your fidgets

Even your constant lists

Maybe

Here the earth is unsteady, the hills stumble across the horizon with untried shoe laces

How dare you leave me here

With this fork in my side

With your promise in my eye

Your lipstick smeared across my ceiling

I'm broken from believing

And now my chest is heaving

With the knowledge you're never coming home