Stepping Closer to Insanity

That's it

It's over

I can't fight it anymore

The war is finally won

A war against myself

And it's the darker side that won.

It started with just one small bottle

And then two and three

And now here I am

No place to go

How did I get here?

Beats me.

The farther I went

Down that dark twisted path

The easier it was

To not look back

I've reached the end of that path now

I've hit a wall

But it's not a wall

It's a gate.

A gate that's sucking me in

Pulling me closer

Trying to take me away

And I have a choice to make.

I can give up all hope

Go through that gate

But it will close behind me forever

I'll never be able to go back.

Or I can awaken inside me

That tiny little part

That still has strength left

Strength to pull myself out of this mess

Away from this wall

But doing that

Would be going through hell.

I'd have to work and work

Trying to pull myself away

When it would be easier to stay here

Slumped against the wall

And let the gate pull me through

Closing the doors of life

Forever.