I Had The Best Day, With You, Today

"Oh my gosh, mom. You'll never guess how much fun I just had it was AMAZING. Oh my god i had such a good time."

"Okay, bye. Love you so much mom."

Yeah, that hurt overhearing the conversation of the girl sitting next to me on the bench.

Because i'll never have that.

I'm never going to have that "mother-child" bond.

Never.

Ever.

It's not possible- impossible.

It hurts hearing kid's love their parent's and it hurts hearing how easily they can talk to them.

It hurts.

It hurts.

Everything hurts.

You wonder why I always skip "The Best Day" by Taylor Swift.

You'd say "i guess you just don't like hearing about the bond between a mother and her daughter, do you? Wow. What else should I have expected?"

No, Fuck you.

I don't like hearing that song because it squeezes out tears from emotional scars. It hurts hearing that song-

Because that's not us.

I hate hearing about their love and they're support and their communication

'Cause you can't do that.

And I can't either.

That's not us, and it can't be.

It can't.

I can't.

We can't.