Anxiety

I got an official diagnosis two years ago. It's a struggle to go to certain places and wonder who I am going to run into. Confrontation has always been something I have avoided. Anxiety over this has cost me one of my closest friends because I ghosted her rather than facing possible questions about a conflict. Anxiety has always made my blood pressure skyrocket. I have very bad white coat syndrome. I am nervous about doctor's visits and my blood pressure readings have always been something of concern. I did have a few therapy sessions. Though ultimately I did not agree with much of what he was saying to me or his methodology, it did make me more aware. When I went to my physical last year, my doctor commented on though well still elevated, she saw that my blood pressure was much improved. I believe that this improvement was caused by the knowledge that I have anxiety so I was able to control my feelings much better than I had in the past.