Ghosting

I am a coward,

All my life I feared confrontation.

Instead of telling the men who asked me out a second time,

That it wasn’t a good fit.

I simply faded from their life.

The worst thing though,

Was ghosting you.

The conflict I had was not even with you.

But with a close friend of yours,

Who was once a close friend of mine.

She turned me into her enemy.

Started bad mouthing me,

And excluding me from my circle of friends.

Then came the book,

Where she saw herself in a character I created.

She was livid,

And more enraged towards me than ever.

I was afraid of what she was saying about me to you.

I was anxious that you would ask me questions about what happened.

I started avoiding your calls,

Letting them go to voicemail.

Letting you fade out of my life.

I had my reasons,

But that’s still no excuse for ghosting you.