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i tried

-not-

to immerse myself in your darkblue desires,

forgot i once was so benign.

-almost-

free of bittersweet lies,

emorides,

late night highs.

i tried

to put a line -

mine, his and hers,

darkblue, red and wine.

i tried

to pull myself together,

-heaven only knows-

closed my eyes

with hope to

never

feel you ever.

your musky touch,

-can't catch it any longer-

mind inside my mind,

dying

right in your arms,

-heaven never knows-

i tried,

i swear i did.