Just a call away

"Call if you need anything, my ringer will stay on while I slumber."

I'll be fine, I reply

Suddenly it's 2:45 a.m and my body is frozen like it's mid December.

You'll be fine, my prideful brain replies.

I never knew ice shattered into millions of pieces so easily, but now I'll always remember.

I see my icy soul spilling in the bed sheets with my pillow-muffled cries.

Now it's 2:58,

Grief seems never to be late.

Right on time, consuming my mind

Finally, I can't bear to be.

I call your phone

Why don't you answer me?

I need your voice to cut through my tear streams.

My brain keeps running through the painful memories.

But all I can see

Are the thoughts that rip through me.

And all I am hearing

Are the unanswered

Ring.

Ring.

Ring.

How could I be fooled into thinking you would be there for me